From recoil toward repair
The work has required me to reconsider attachments to outsider resistance, anti-system romance, and forms of refusal that once felt meaningful. It has not made critique less important. It has made critique answerable to repair.
Once the work began moving toward children, care, records, vulnerable people, language, interpretation, and systems change, the contradiction became visible. I cannot ask others to take its ethical direction seriously while preserving attachments in my own life that would pull against that direction.